Bella Hadid going through it lately, and it’s just so sad to see…
On Instagram On Thursday, the supermodel was very open and honest about it her constant struggle with chronic illness. In a candid post to her Storiesshe wrote:
“I wish it wasn’t so intimidating and difficult to explain the pain/exhaustion/fatigue/anxiety/brain fog/insecurities that come with chronic illness/co-infections/mental health/trauma/etc. This leads to severe isolation and depression, especially over long periods of time. Especially when you try everything you can. You learn about your symptoms, read books, read other people’s stories, try to self-diagnose as you demand answers that no one can find. You fight.”
She continued:
“You finally have a few good days. You think you’ve found the right protocol, the right routine, the right treatment… and then another flare-up comes and suddenly nothing feels certain anymore. Back to canceling plans, back to the inability to make decisions because you never know how you’ll feel from day to day. You wake up with anxiety already living in your body. Physical pain before your feet even hit the ground… And somehow you still have to find the strength to face another day coming through with a body and mind completely exhausted. Masking feelings you can’t even explain. Sometimes it feels like it’s impossible unless you’ve experienced something like that, or loved someone who has
fully understand.”
So, so sad… Poor Bella.
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In the rest of her post, she talked about her faith in God to keep her going, and she lent some positive words to others who may be experiencing similar situations:
“I truly believe that every hardship leaves us with a lesson, a deeper compassion or a strength we never knew we had. It leads us to the places, people and experiences we have now. I am so grateful for life, but without living in a body that has more hard days than good ones… it’s hard to find joy, purpose or a reason to even go out… but we will keep trying! always! anyway. I just wanted to come here to say, to anyone who is struggling like me, or in a unique way: you You are loved. Your life has a purpose And you will survive every season that life throws at you. I love you and hold you deeply.’
How meaningful. See her full post (below):
However, in a second post she makes it clear that the optimistic spark has faded. She wrote about her recent ‘flare-ups’:
“I haven’t been able to shake this flare-up… Slept 11 hours. Again… Naps every day. I’ve followed every protocol from every doctor I’ve seen. Still nothing helps. IFYKY. Now I’ve diagnosed myself with 12 other things, so that’s good”
She added:
“And today is not the day to tell me to journal. And yes, I drank water. And no, I didn’t go for a walk because I walked to the kitchen out of breath (I don’t think there’s a single brain cell working there and my last two are confused with each other, so I’m sorry if I ever told you to journal on a bad day. I take it back and I’m sorry. I showered without passing out, so… so again, if you know you know… that felt like a really big achievement for me today, so maybe someone can send me a cookie or something”
She’s just seriously struggling! And unfortunately she has been for so long…
However, in an update post on Friday, she said she is doing well and doesn’t want people to worry:
“I’m sorry if I scared anyone. I know it sounds shocking, but in all truth, it’s my reality, so it’s something I can deal with now. I’m sorry if I scared anyone. This has really been every day for the last 15 years, ebbs and flows. I’ve just had an overwhelming amount of emotions because I wasn’t able to do the things my mind is capable of, but my body isn’t capable of.”
It’s so hard to hear, but Bella is SO strong. We send her love and healing amid her health challenges.
(Image via Bella Hadid/Instagram)
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